#because i am and im squeeing in the distance.

[backjustforberena]

Hi! I just wanted to say that I absolutely adore your takes on Rhaenys. Unironically, there are so many times where I am having A Big Thought on the subject and come on here and you have said the exact thing I do not have the words to say myself and it is wonderful.

Also, I just saw your reply to someone else who said something similarly, and I am glad to know that your current fixation on all things Eve and also Rhaenys as a character isn’t going anywhere. I always feel like I’m late to the party discovering things so I wind up missing all the good discourse and squeeing over actresses and characters, so knowing that at least for the foreseeable future you will also be out there in the world losing your shit over her is good for my soul.

Also also, I do not know if you are still taking the rose asks, but the excerpts of yours I have read from that so far are all so good. I am very (im)patiently waiting for whenever you see fit to finish the things they are a part of so I may enjoy them just as much in context as I have in snippet form!

Hello! I let this sit in my inbox for a few days just so I could keep looking at it and smiling broadly. What a lovely, lovely thing to say and to take the time to write.

I'm glad that you've enjoyed my meta, thoughts and opinions about Rhaenys. She's just a character that's got a very big hold on me at the moment (along with her husband and her relationships with others) and no one in my real life actually watches HOTD for me to talk to them about it, and not in this detail! So Tumblr is a great place to really indulge in all that sort of thing, and get genuine debate and engagement from others who may be feeling the same way. And it's a creative outlet, as much as anything else, with the fic and the gifs and all of that. I really love it.

You're not late with me! And the good thing about Tumblr is that the internet is permanent. If you are interested in meta and thoughts and all that stuff, then you can search my blog. A lot of tagged with "bad meta" because I like being ironic, or else with the character name. And, honestly, I'm always happy to re-hash. You could come into my inbox any time.

I've always got something percolating, fic-wise, and, for being so lovely and nice, here's a longer extract of something - it's an AU in which, in Episode 01, Viserys summons Rhaenys over Rhaenyra, and offers the crown to her. A lot of the time, I do "what-ifs" to explore the politics and the interpersonal relationships. This one has been a doozy to actually finish because, as you can read, Rhaenys is basically thinking Viserys is out of his mind - that it can't be done:

I like writing Viserys and Rhaenys - the tragedy of that relationship. I don't do it often enough because, unfortunately, there will always be barriers preventing true honesty between them, which curbs any progress between them and a lot of opportunity for storytelling that's true to them.

There's always pain and distance despite deep love. This delves into that a little bit but because Viserys needs Rhaenys to see his earnestness, and they are in private, and he needs her to accept his plan (giving her the crown), the walls come down a bit. So, for example, in this, after this extract, Viserys actually asks her why she never had more children. And she's actually honest about it.

It's fun to explore. Asking yourself questions.

[2djdanger]

2 PART LONG POST INCOMING:

I’ve been harassed for as long as I can remember for the things I’m interested in because people can’t wrap it around their heads that someone can really really reeeaaally like something to the point that they wanna know the fine details about it. I’m a massive Jonas Brothers fan. I’ve been a fan since 2007. I love the music but I wanted to understand the people behind the songs & so I studied up. I read magazines until I couldn’t see straight anymore, recited everything (even though a lot was wrong since it was gossip but I was 10 so how would I know) I learned to anyone within distance of me, I connected so deeply to the lyrics of some songs I wrote them over & over on every paper I had just so I wouldn’t forget it. Hell, my tumblr name 2djdanger is a big fat Jonas Brothers reference & ive kept it the same as when I first made it in 2011 because it still represents one of my biggest interests. I did so much because I was fully invested in something that brought me joy that people called me names, said I was obsessed, & I was singled out for not being like the rest of the people around me who didn’t talk about their interests. Years down the line, I’m still just as invested in Jonas Brothers as back in 2007. I met them last year in 2019 & they were humble & nicer than nice to me which made my life. People who once bullied me are coming out saying they’ve been in love with the band since 2007 which pisses me off when they clearly didn’t but I digress. Over & over again, I find myself finding new things I become interested in & go deep in for & get made fun of irl for. Anime. There’s very “niche” (it’s not really niche but in the western world where most people I’m around don’t understand it) animes I have come to “obsess” over such as the 1960s/1980s versions of Astro Boy & Urusei Yatsura. I’m an animation college graduate who loved to just study the shit out of how these media were created in the first place. People in my own major didn’t like me because I was “too out there” for them with my interests. Invader fucking Zim. The relationship I have with Jhonen Vasquez-created media is so damn chaotic. In high school when I first discovered IZ for the first time I went as some would call it “overboard” & quoted the show, dressed in GIR merch head to toe (this was during the IZ renaissance at Hot Topic) almost everyday, learned to draw IZ chars without reference, watched the show on repeat, learned about the production & everything in between about this thing which then lead me to JV’s comics (JTHM/Squee/I Feel Sick/etc), buying $100+ shoes to look like Nny when I was hella broke, I threw a fucking IZ themed watch party in the middle of July with Gir origami/printed out versions of the main cast autographs/games/etc. Fast forward to the end half of 2019: im fucking depressed as hell. My whole life’s falling apart in front of me & carried on deteriorating rapidly the entirety of 2020. I was forced against my will to up & leave my home & the people/places I grew up in & became so traumatized after graduating college I couldn’t draw for a full year & am still dealing with the repercussions in therapy. Then & currently at my lowest lows when nobody’s there for me I turn to my interests to just give me some serotonin. IZ singlehandedly dragged/drags me out of my depressed mind, made/makes me laugh (which I can barely do nowadays), & gave me a fresh & renewed sense of creativity. I started to slip deep into the IZ realm & annoy the fuck out of everyone near me again. “It’s childish””it’s a stupid cartoon”“grow tf up”. I spent like $500 on rare IZ merch high school me could only dream of, bought/read cover to cover every IZ comic & book about the scripts/production I could get my hands on to understand it on a deeper level. I built a Zim cosplay from scratch because I felt like Zim for a hot minute. Alone, an outcast on the fringes of a foreign society, uber-confident (what my goal is to be/how I currently feel in my (part 2 coming next)

“Potterheads read a different book” challenge

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